2001-06-18 - 11:44 a.m.

I'm tired...emotionally.

Work has me down - too much corporate bullshit and office politics.

Life has me down - the continuing degredation of American society, the overwhelming ignorance and complacency.

Quivas is feeling the same things and we're both searching for some method by which to break away from it all and search for a new life that can be more fulfilling than this. Anyone have any good ideas? E-mail me.

I've got to put in my 8 hours of face time in the office now. Boring - nothing to do since our group has slowed down and that two-faced cow of a boss I have took over all my work. So I sit here and write and play games and bang my head against the wall. Sometimes I wipe the frost off my toes that collects there due to the fact that someone decided the air conditioning should be set on artic.

People are falling short of expectations, expectations are falling short of happiness. There has to be something else. This isn't depression this is discontentment brought on by awareness. Those that said ignorance is bliss were right because in my new state of political and social awareness (and self awareness) I'm going crazy.

Is it really so bad to think about selling everything and moving to some hut in some other corner of the world?