8/11/2005 6:22 pm[Post a comment]
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12/25/2009 8:27 pm
There's an essentail difference between a submissive and a slave. I used to engage in this discussion long ago and purely dismiss it to a matter of semantics but its really not necessarily so. You see the submissive always realizes that there's an element of self gratification in every act. There's mutual benefit to all of it. For the slave this must not necessarily be so - not the true slave. The Master that seeks a true slave does not require that in the action He takes there be benefit to the slave. The Master that seeks a submissive will always seek mutual benefit for Himself and the submissive.
*i* am not a slave. i have never been able to rid myself of that self-serving element. i seek mutual positive benefit from my action. It was a sad conversation for me...after all under the guidance of this Master i'd come to pen some of my greatest works. He helped me to channel my energies in ways i'd be unable to harness them under my own devices. He provided disciple i longed for and with that freedom amazing things flowed. But He asked me for things which denied self. To put another before self is submission, to deny self is slavery. i will not deny myself.
Now why this discussion.....In response to my post essence its been asked if my submission and my idealism are not contradictory. How do i pursue my idealist thought as a submissive? It is implied that i cannot. I emphatically say i much more so pursue it as a submissive. Furthermore i'm free to because i'm a submissive and not a slave...
The pursuit of intellectual enlightenment takes many paths. Many people seek guides and partners along the paths. Not because they cannot journey alone but because they prefer other views and some company along the journey. Its not a crutch i seek when i say that long for a Daddy to share in this journey of life, or my journey as a submissive, my journey as an idealist in the realist world. If this Daddy should never come along i'm quite convinced i'll find my way and do quite well on my own volition. Meanwhile i'll have shared the path with a good number of quite amazing souls who have been good enough to hold my hand and laugh with me, share a few sage words and make this an amazing jaunt.
Submission does not mean close me up in a box and make me useless to the world and myself. Submission doesn't mean just play with my head and fuck me hard up against the wall like a dirty naughty little slut toy (though that's kinda fun
Submission means push my limits and take me somewhere a little bit higher, a little better and little further. Help me grow wings and fly with me. Its intensity, its idealism perhaps itself. Striving for it....take me harder......past the last breath....
My submission will never take me out of this world or hide me from it. If a Master ever has intent of that then He won't own me. i'm not a slave and i'm not a fool. My submission is about growing........the One that shares it with me....will know how to nurture it.
