Home

It happened almost too quickly, with a fluidity i was not prepared for, enough that it makes my heart quiver in my chest, it makes butterflies swarm in my tummy...it makes a smile jump and play upon my lips to think upon it.

I have come to realize through the years that home is a place far more relative and and a word with far more meaning for me than many others will ever come to understand it as. Yet it is not a word to be used flippantly or carelessly, home is a treasure, a brilliant word with many facets, bestowed upon a place or person or family....

And now, what took nearly 2 years and the event of my moving away to happen in a tropical paradise to truly feel, happened again so quickly in this place that it squeezes the air from my lungs to think about. When te words slipped from my lips, when i called it home the other night, i gasped.

And i've been perhaps strangely quiet since.....i don't know if i can stay here, with these people that have made me so at ease, who have invited me in, held me close, made me feel special and sweet. I don't know where in the coming months my world will go, which way it will turn and where i will follow the path. I do know that in moments now i find myself longing to stay, to sit in the cool evening breezes and listen to the talk, to toss back a few more drinks at a cozy little bar, to laugh and sing along with the radio. The quiet comes because the heart strings tug, and i long to capture time or make it stand still.....i like this home.

I have received a great gift here, they have given me a new home, a new precious lovely place in my heart, in my world, where i can hang my hat and hang my heart, where i can prop my feet up on the coffee table and throw my coat in the closet and know, i am safe, i am loved and i am just where i want to be.

I miss my Mami

Its one of those days
and in the midst of too many goodbyes
and with a heart that is torn
i just miss my Mami

But hopefully it shall all be right soon
and i adore you Mami
*throws kisses across the water*